Thursday, September 01, 2005
I sit in my living room, leeching on an anonymous neighbour's wireless-'Kalai' who is that? Emails have been shot to hostels, universities, SEP friend. MSN conversations have been held with a friend who misses msgs on a freq reg basis, Dooey, other 'EP friends. Mom sits in front of me, reading the papers, eating bak kua. The mundaneness and familiarity of this one peaceful thursday afternoon, with the faint musical tinkling of faraway windchimes reminds me how much I will miss home when I leave. Family, friends, the familarity of my surroundings, they all play a part in creating my world. and now as I step out of the safety of this tiny world i call my own, I can't help but feel a tingle of fear, of apprehension. It's not really for long a time and i'm sure that once i am there, the excitment and the process of discovery and experiencing will absolutely make it all so worthwhile and I might JUST, want to stay there, a mite longer.
However, the dangers are real out there, and the question of trust does really come into play- in a big way. Who should I trust in world full of strangers? Who should I turn to for help? I guess time will reveal all and so for now, I'll revel in the present, and enjoy warmth of my little world even as the countdown begins- 10 MORE DAYS.