Hi Girls :)

Sorry haven't been writing here for some time although I've been writing on my whole blog like mad :P

I suddenly realised that if I'm back home right now, I'll most likely be super mugging for my exams, while at the same time trying to write my millionth term paper of the semester. Am I glad that I'm here *grin*

On the other hand, I am starting to miss home. I think I may be ready to come home at the end of December, contrary to what I previously believe.

Perhaps I should share this with you guys:

Yesterday, I was talking to Yibin via MSN, and telling him that I feel a fever coming on (which is most likely due to my staying out til 5 am the night before in the 4 degrees air). So Boyfriend just told me to go home earlier and sleep because it is most probably due to my lack of sleep that I'm feeling a little woozy.

I don't know what made me do it, but I decided right then that I should at least apologise for the things I've been doing here in Copenhagen (you know). So I did.

And Boyfriend just said, "Don't need la.", and went right back to telling me how to take care of myself (i.e. drink water, sleep earlier, drink tea, don't drink beer for the next few days, don't stay out so late).

Initially, I was okay. I just said goodbye, packed my stuff, and went off to get my bike. But just as I was unlocking my bike, it suddenly strike me how good Boyfriend is to me - and at the same time, how bad I am to him. And I got this real urge to cry because I feel like such a horrible person. The guy said that there's no need for an apology! Can you believe it? If our roles are reversed, and he offered the same thing, I would have think it ridiculous that he thought that a plain apology will suffice. This is how unfairly I've been treating him I guess.

How can I be doing this to him? What is wrong with me?

I've never really dislike myself, but at that moment, I certainly didn't like myself very much.