Tuesday, October 04, 2005
no,i am not pissed. and i do know that u are entitled to ur reactions as i am mine. that is y i said that i understand and accept that (so yes i thought about it before I wrote the blog). sadness on my part is through no fault of yours or anyones. Sadness, like all emotions come unbidded, you simply feel, no reason no logic needed. I am simply writing it coz that is how i felt and I am not blaming you or Liyi. I am just telling you how I felt and how it reminded me of wanqing and my reaction towards her. How I THINK she might have felt in the face of my own lack of reaction.I hope I am not creating a mountain out of a mole hill coz I had and have no intention of doing that. It's just that I am simply wondering, why is it that one has to be reasonable, logical, practical? I mean these are the words that I always tell myself that I have to be. To walk in another's shoes. but then who is going to walk in mine? the talk about complexity is complex on its own, and my grouse is WHY CAN'T it be straight forward? (this is a rhetorical question so no one needs to ans it ok?)I don't even want u to b hurt that you couldn't help me coz 1) itz absurd, 2)I don't expect it (due to supremely practical reasons 3)I know that if I had been alone, I would have been able to handle it albeit spent more cash that I have. and I DO GET THE BIGGER BETTER PICTURE(this is not a pissed tone this is an exasperated tone coz i don't believe you think me immature to actually think for real that I didn't get it). I got it even as I answered the first phone call.and just for the record I know that everyone wants me to b happy (that's y we are friends right?) just as i want others to be happy. Anne doesn't do conflict very well. NOT WELL AT ALL. and the guy who manns the com is chasing me off... so TELL ME MORE ABOUTYOUR PROBLEMS YOU ARE DEALING WITH MY DEAR FRIEND QIUYI, I will try and help u w it!!! listening ear on ALert!