Tuesday, November 08, 2005
I blogged about how I felt, and Anne Liyi and Dot said I was too harsh. The trouble is that I really feel that way, and I was under the impression that we were all asked to blog about how we feel.My previous entry was not meant to be aggressive. I won't apologise for it because it wasn't my intention in the first place.
So from now on I will blog about how I think instead. Stop asking me what I want Yun to do, and none of the "obviously you want her to do something". I want nothing. In the first place, I'm the one who was attacked. Have you forgotten?
All of this seems silly to all of you, that's relatively easy to say since most of you are abroad. Granted, it seems silly, and exaggerated. But I've said over and over again, it doesn't matter to me anymore. I don't care anymore. But it still gets brought up and again, why are you not speaking to her, what is happening at home.
I'm beginning to feel its my fault for even feeling hurt in the first place, when Yun's boyfriend slandered me. Everyone says, give benefit of the doubt. I say fuck that.
To all the goneaways, dear qiuyi liyi anne and dot, If you really want to say that I am harsh, put yourself in my shoes.
1. You deleted the tag from the group's tagboard. The nick is "TIP", it says "you can choose the word verification option to turn off spam comments. don't call yourself a tech princess if you don't even know this". No one saw this tag except dot.
2. You saw Jude's blog the following night, the latest entry is this:
"Laughable
Some people are just pathetic. Don't go blowing your own trumpet if you have absolutely no substance to back it up. Looked in a mirror recently?
Oh, by the way, it was a good tip, no? I wonder why it was deleted. Your over-inflated pig-skin of an ego cannot take it?
Bah, whatever.
I won't even bother with your silly games and petty childishness. You are pathetic."
3. Yun asks, he denies. You feel like someone put words into your mouth when he was the one who said it in the first place.
4. Then everyone tells you "Are you sure its him? Give benefit of the doubt." when you've explained over and over. Seems like no one really knows anything or believes you.
Fast forward to today. Repeat 4.
Its just frustrating. I swear I won't blog about this anymore, or about how I feel towards Yun or Jude. This should be the least of my worries, and from now on, it will be.