Monday, November 07, 2005
Sometimes I feel that I'm just too quick with my words that people are hurt in the process. Pride is holding me back from apologising. Anyway what is said cannot be taken back. It's not that I feel I am in the wrong but I don't want the strong words (in others' perspectives) used in getting the message across to hurt. They are never meant to hurt.1:00:11 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: y do u always assume the worst of ppl?
11:00:21 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: i didn't blog cos i didn't have internet connection
11:00:35 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: i am now at a mac, that's y i have internet connection
11:00:52 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: oh ya
11:00:54 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: and i know i haven't been meeting up with u guys, that's y i try to keep in contact by sms-ing
11:00:59 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: happy birthday to Jude
11:01:01 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: and y bother is not referring u
11:01:16 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: i noe u think my blog entry was about u guys
11:01:22 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: but it wasn't
11:01:25 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: i was talking about my project mates
11:01:35 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: pple has been asking to me to read it
11:01:37 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: so i read it
11:01:47 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: and i have been complaining about my project mates to dot and anne wat
11:01:52 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: i really wasn't referring to u guy
11:01:53 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: s
11:02:07 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: after what ur explanation i NEVER think u're writing abt us
11:02:16 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: okie... sorry
11:02:32 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: and it's not i dun wanna meet u guys
11:02:54 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: it's just that i thought u guys didn't want to meet me... i was hurt... cos i realised a few times when u were out and u didn't call me
11:03:07 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: YAH I GAVE UP
11:03:16 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: CALLING YOU
11:03:20 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: it's not like i ever told u i'm meeting jude so i can't meet u
11:03:28 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: i never once said that wat
11:03:36 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: when u guys do call me i go wat
11:03:38 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: yep!
11:03:46 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: it's not abt this yun
11:03:50 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: then?
11:03:54 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: it's not abt "we call then you come"
11:03:56 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: i really dun understand
11:03:59 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: it's more to it
11:04:12 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: but i've always been like this wat... it's not like i attached le then i changed wat
11:04:18 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: i'm sorry
11:04:19 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: friendship is more than that
11:04:29 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: i'll try to arrange something k
11:04:29 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: and u must understand
11:04:31 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: you think you nv change but you did
11:04:46 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: i noe wanqing was really affected by the jude thing and everytime when we are out, it is SO awkward
11:04:46 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: hello! JUDE who is NOW FUCKING READING THIS
11:04:58 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: i'm not going to talk abt it when he's ard
11:05:05 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: she treats me like a stranger
11:05:08 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: anyway i have two exams tmr
11:05:09 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: no he's not here
11:05:21 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: so talk another day
11:05:26 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: how did i change?
11:05:37 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: i don't know..
11:05:40 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: alright, nvm. u go study
11:05:42 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: wanqing
11:05:43 PM t_yun@hotmail.com: good luck for ur exams
11:05:51 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: isn't that hostile towards u anymore
11:05:56 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: she's recovering
11:06:07 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: she actually asked me not to blog abt it
Away Message: Busy (11:06:23 PM)
11:06:24 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: coz SHE thinks you will be upset
11:06:45 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: i blog abt it coz dot has this blog abt it
11:07:04 PM t_liting@hotmail.com: so just thought that I should give a proper explanation
P.S: Jude was there at ECP Mac.
It's not that I think of the worst of all situations. It's just that trust is lacking. Tan Yun is not the only one upset and lost. I can said that Wanqing is equally upset. She stood up for Yun when I was angry, just like I stood up for Yun when she was angry. So everybody STOPS pressing Wanqing. For your record, the last time the both of them went out together was 1 1/2 months ago. No one is at fault. I guess what Wanqing needed is reassurance from Tan Yun. I know Tan Yun feels very lost about it. Perhaps there is why nothing has been done. But avoidance is just going to make things worse. And I BELIEVE we are all old enough to manage relationships, even first.
That's all I have to say. Or else I can't settle down to studying.